Happy New Year!!

Happy new year to everyone!!

the year 2004 have been a long but exciting year for me.

This year, I started working, learning and making mistakes, all along experiencing things that life offers for me. Life throws a wake up call at me.

I learnt sum things about myself.. abt the working world, what life is all about. That's all. I wanna say.

Good year to you, my dear reader, may your dreams and aspirations come true..

changed again..

I seriously don't know what andwhere went wrong with the layout. Been changing the blog layout, tampering and modifying with the dimensions. until it all screws up and I gave up.

Went to Blogskins to find another layout.. Modified the changes here and there, asked Gary for te codes. he did help. but couldn't talk to him much. (since he's busy watching tv) :p

but now, I'm happy with it. now, haf to solve the problem of avoiding irritating popups so as to speak. >.<

just wanna know: how do you know the codes of the colours like FFFFFF means white or black? other codes for other colours?

what about putting the links of achives of the monthy blogs?

and does any1 have any blinking idea on how to put tagboards?

ppl wiser than me, please enlighten me. I wanna know.

THat's it.

going to KL...

Yahoo!! Ah.. finally, an hour before I go to KL!!

Today is Christmas Eve.. today, I admit that we are not in the mood to work, since all of us were in a holiday mood. :p I spent the day doing some work, but it takes time. I decided to postpone it to Monday.

oh uh... I think that I'm going to be in a bit of trouble. :x I wonder how is Mr Ilan going to react.. hopefully can forgive me.. But all of us spent the morning eating logcake, chocolates and also Canadian pizza. (Yum!!)

Our vice-chairman, Mr Kenneth Liang, called us and asked us about the annual Christmas party
. But unfortunately, i believe that all the other Exco Members were busy doing their own shopping and celebrating on their own. But he made the effort to drop by and also bought us some chocolates and a bottle of champaigne as well. (I drank water.)

We rushed out of the office and headed to the reception desk outside, where Mani had placed the Logcake. Annie cut the logcake and my boss, Mr Soh, opened the champaigne. We spent the day eating cakes and telling Mr Ling about the e-card. Yesterday, Mr Liang called the office up and instructed Mani to create a e-card for him to send to all his potential clients and friends. Mani then asked Bertille and me to help her. Bertille had the ball rolling by using the used cards and cutting the decorations from the card. Then I scanned it and tried to edit it by using Paint. Unfortunately, we don't have the Acrobat Reader. To cut a long story short, we improvised ways to get things done, relying on our creativity. But funny things happened along the way and the three of us laughed our heads off. Bertille had this habit of being unable to sleep after long hours of laughter.

and it happened again last night.. :B

After the lunch, Annie and me headed to the restroom, where Bertille caught up with us. We spent the rest of the day relaxing, milling the hours away. when the clock struck 1, we quickly ran out of the office.

When I strode out of the gate, I was surprised to see my RSP friends standing outside. Little did I know that they planned to go shopping later, waiting for another friend of theirs to shop for the event held on 7 January.. Sabrina invited me along, but I told her that I'll be going to Malaysia today. Haix.. my RSp friends.. I missed them a lot.. I hugged Sabrina back when she spotted me and so did Asryna..

I felt as if a burden is lifted off me during those moments.. I felt a healing that goes on within me whenever I'm with friends, especially the ones whom I loved dearly, the RSp ppl, my gang, my clasmates.. especially Rebecca. how I wished that time could be turned back again.. and we could all enjoy ourselves again. oh well..

But I am grateful for this surprise meeting. I know God knows my feelings inside.. He knows my anger, my sadness, my loneliness. My frustrations, my worries, and my fear. and I feel blessed because of that knowledge..

I thank God for that...

see you later, adios!!

woah..

have you ever experienced a feeling or a nagging thought in your head that refuses to fade or go away? You know, your instincts tell you 24/7 that what you're doing is wrong and should end it immediately. but not only that, your friends or your family members do things that make you sick, even though they are well-intentioned? or is it the first time you are going through this and without the support of some friends, family members and other ppl whom you hold in high regard?

the worst thing, you know that they're right, but you can't make yourself do it. Instead, you try to seriously consider their suggestions, but end up crying in the dark, in silence. I might be axxeggerating, cry endlessly, wondering when the tears will stop.

you have changed into a different person, a different side of yourself that you never really explored, the the anger in yourself which you can't really control. and that feeling is accompanied with a slight fear that things can go wrong.


and that inevitable event is totally against your principles.

I have asked many people this qn: what wld you do if you're in my shoes?

and their answer is the same.

My colleague asked me this straight in the face; What do you want from this?
But I have no answer for that..